DEAR diary. There are just some things, some questions without answers. For a strange and unexpected reason I am letting go off myself. I am losing myself and getting closer to myself at the same time. Never thought I could feel something like love, real love. It is taking over my body and my life. Never want to let it go now. Probably it was him I was waiting for and now all I want is to be with him. This is, I suppose, the reason for the extreme radio silence here. But as you know I share the most important things here, in my visual online diary, so this has to be shared here. Then you know, that I am still alive. Actually, I am more alive then I ever was. Every single part of me is breathing, living and loving.